Laugh or cry?

Had a very confusing day today. Guess it is emotional overload. Had a great evening with Mr. S (going on 3 weeks). We are planning a good weekend (pig roast, a fund raiser and a birthday party) and he might actually come to church with me and the family for Easter(April 7).

Stopped to see Ditmar at Score where I saw B&T Mark from his self imposed distance (of course he continues to ignore my existence; and I quote directly from him"I want no further contact with you.") and I felt sad because there were friends there (as there have been the last last few times I've seen him) that we could have been sharing time with at the same time, but that is not to be. I am not in Jr. High anymore. (Don't know what he needs to get over it, but it needs to happen.) My feelings for him are gone, but the sadness of the loss is still there. This is the last time he will be mentioned in this forum.

Skipped the "Martini Tuesday" (was hoping to see "The" Mrs Astor). Was at a great location, but too late for me tonight.

I received an e-mail from Ian. He made a statement on his blog (El Mundo de Ian) about me (Spanish section). I had reminded him (in Spanish) that I had thought about him and that he is still on my prayer list. It gave me a smile and a tear. The duality of changing relationships and circumstances, especially when there is a lot of emotion attached, is always difficult. "...y esos momentos quedarán guardados en mi corazón... el único lugar en donde todos los que amo conviven sin "limitaciones lingüísticas" ni distancias..." TRANSLATION:" ...and all those moments will be saved in my heart...the only place where all those I love can coexist without limitations in linguistics or distance..."

Aaaaaaand, spoke to Maria (who is on her way back to Boston tomorrow). She has not been back since the death of her mom last week. She has had my ear every day. She has called me multiple times daily, at all hours, and I keep telling her it is "OK". Friends do that and mean it.

This is not considering the home front. Irma has her Doctor's appointment on Thursday. (The ambulance is already confirmed.) We received all our insurance premium invoices (car, house,life, health, etc) at the same time. Gladys is leaving on a spring break trip. One of the home care workers is out of town. Two of Mom's lifelong friends have become widows in the last week. Am I complaining or venting?

The good stuff:

• Weekend with Mr. S.
• Meeting the Jonnie's to plan the "Disco de Mayo".
• Shopping/Lauderdale trip with Ditmar.
• Palm Sunday (April 1).
• Signed up to volunteer at the Miami Gay & Lesbian Film Festival
• Training for the Aids Walk/Run in April
• Training for the Corporate Run on May 3 (Barcardi Team)

Continue to count your blessings and pray for those who have lost their ability to do so. 'til later..Peace......